Chords for Drug Addiction

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[F#] Khaleesi, you see everybody got a [C#] story to tell, _ [F] well here's [A#m] mine.
My pain's deep, I've been through hell, [F] I managed to survive so I got a story to tell.
[F#] Listen, I stand victorious, make the sign of the cross, [C#] look I'm here to be the voice
for every friend [F] I've ever lost.
[A#m] Let me pray as I put together my hands, [F] I've never been ashamed to tell you the person I am.
[F#] When it comes to doing drugs, I've never been a rookie, [C#] but hold up.
Let me tell you about the places [F] that they took [A#m] me.
I haven't showered, it's been possibly a week [F] and I'm so deep in a psychosis, impossible to speak.
[F#] That coke is in my arm now, it's impossible to sleep.
[A#m] My throat's numb, closed shut so it's impossible to eat.
Losing weight's a part of my daily routine, [F] I always use against my will, just praying
I was clean.
[F#] So nod your head if you understand what I mean.
[C#] When I was growing up, I never thought that I would [A#m] be a fiend, ever.
My life's tumultuous, it's never getting better.
[F] Another abscess from my arm is getting [F#] severed.
My exquisite vision, depiction of [C#] dereliction.
Livid living conditions, malicious [F] on a mission.
[A#m] All these green tree cops, look they all know me by my first [F] name.
Paramedics had to revive me, this ain't a game.
[F#] I've worn the same clothes for like the last ten days.
[C#] And look, I wanna do better, but I don't know [F] a different way.
[A#m] Completely all alone, I'm sitting in this room.
[F] I empty out the bags, brown liquid in the spoon.
[F#] I have to do a lot, can no longer do a little.
[C#] The water's been added, I place the [A#m] cotton in the middle.
I'm sucking every drop up into this plastic device.
[F] As I am tying off, I'm trying to find a decent vein to [F#] strike.
I shove it ever so gently up underneath my skin.
[C#] As I am pulling back the plunger to this blood [F] in the syringe.
[A#m] I push it in and try to drift away to [F] heaven.
But criminals like me, that's never the place that we're [F#] headed.
The guilt, shame, remorse, and regret I never addressed.
[C#] And I'm a mess from all this pain and this anguish.
[F] I'm filled with [A#m] stress, overdoses, I'm emotionally broken.
This ain't a joke.
[F] Smoking on a Newport, I never have [F#] any hope.
This is me, I'm feeling like I don't deserve [C#] more.
I feel disgusted as I'm pushing [F] on this [A#m] burnt shore.
Someone stole the vinegar in the midst of a [F] blackout.
Another shooting gallery, another crack [F#] house.
On the porch, welcome to hell, he's on the [C#] floor, man.
I'm glancing at my arms and all I [A#m] ever see are sore tracks.
I'm feeling filthy, dirty needles with the orange [F] cap.
Peeking out the window, someone whispers,
Lock the door, [F#] latch.
We're blasting off, departing from this [C#] mothership.
I look around as others search the cupboard [F] for another [A#m] hit.
Crest, whitening strips, and mock threes.
[F] I'm on a suicidal mission till these cops try to [F#] stop me.
We boosted every day, selling steaks for half [C#] price.
Any dream I ever had was shattered [F] by glass [A#m] pipes.
Glass rose, devil got me in his [F] lasso.
Enter the gates of hell and I didn't even have a [F#] passcode.
I'm hard headed, I will never learn my [C#] lesson.
You know the drug, commit a crime [F] and get [A#m] arrested.
The misery never ends, I'll spend another week in [F] jail.
I don't have friends, family never paid my bills.
[F#] So I would withdraw and kick on that concrete floor.
[C#] I feel I've had enough of my body, [F] it's screaming [A#m] more.
The food is horrible, but I haven't eaten in [F] days.
No reason to call home, cause I got nothing left to [F#] say.
I'm tired of this jail, I don't ever want to see [C#] prison.
Look, I'm tired and exhausted from this life [F] that I am [A#m] living.
I would get a couple days clean and say that I was [F] done.
But every time I got released, I was back on the [F#] run.
It's back to thieving, lying, robbing, and ripping, and running.
[C#] These problems, I don't solve them.
I'm crippled and [F] sick to my [A#m] stomach.
I hang with prostitutes and these deadly [F] degenerates.
I'm homeless for the moment, but that's really quite [F#] irrelevant.
The only thing that matters in life is my next [C#] high.
I gotta be willing to change and give it [F] my best try.
[A#m] I'm a servant and this heroin's my [F] king.
I'm feeling like a slave as I dangle from these puppet [F#] strings.
I'm just a marionette, I'm staring to death [C#] as I am carrying regrets
that are just [A#m] tearing through my flesh.
We're dealing with a topic we're so careless to [F] neglect.
We're dealing with a dilemma, leaving every parent [F#] stressed.
I'm so sick and tired, though, of being sick and [C#] tired.
But then it finally happened, motivated [F] by [A#m] desire.
I hit this point I wanted to change, enough is [F] enough.
My effort's been exhausted and I'm tired of being [F#] stuck.
My faith is never blind and my future I barely see.
[C#] But overnight was over-minded, I had this [F] moment of [A#m] clarity.
So it begins and it's essential, I [F] believe.
Because if it worked for you, then it just had to work for [F#] me.
Through all this pain, there's gotta be a positive [C#] message.
I talked about the past, now let's [F] talk about the [A#m] present.
I'm no longer living that way for me, it's a [F] blessing.
But with one bad decision, I am back in that [F#] obsession.
And O3 was diagnosed with hepatitis [C#] C.
I utilize the bad, it's always been [F] the fuel for [A#m] driving me.
And then you ask me, why do I give this my [F] all?
I'm not trying to see rest in peace on my Facebook wall.
[F#] I got clean in O5 and started [C#] rapping.
I started touching lies, I never thought [F] that this would [A#m] happen.
This shit today, trust me it isn't [F] hair.
When it's killing everybody and the comments are [F#] disparaging.
No one cares, it gets fucked and I'm clean.
[C#] For them, another deadly overdose is just [F] something to see.
[A#m] Look, I pay attention to every post that I [F] read.
As you were sitting there judging in front of your iPhone [F#] screen.
Talking about these dying addicts and how they are [C#] worthless.
And if they put a needle in their [F] arm, then they deserve [A#m] it.
But that's someone's mother, someone's uncle, someone's [F] daughter.
And that's someone's aunt, someone's son and someone's [F#] father.
As I rap, the shit is giving me [C#] chills.
And I'm speaking off experience, that's [F] how I know it's [A#m] real.
These ignorant motherfuckers will say it's not a [F] disease.
And look, I really don't care.
You can believe what you [F#] believe.
I don't care to argue.
I don't got to give you [C#] proof.
Listen, I was taught you don't got to [F] defend the [A#m] truth.
And curable, aggressive and fatal, unless [F] arrested.
I'm expressing aggression with every sentiment [F#] confession.
Once a junkie, always a junkie.
You're [C#] boring me.
The last time I checked, there's one [F] ultimate [A#m] authority.
I'm sick of these remarks and opinions from all these [F] critics.
Because if you've never lived it, then trust me, you'll never [F#] get it.
Never get it.
Be quiet.
You're not allowed to [C#] speak about it.
If you've never lived it, then you're [F] not allowed to [A#m] speak about it.
How often you forget [F] the only time that you should ever open your mouth
is to [F#] eat a dick.
Everybody is dying.
It makes me [C#] sick.
This isn't an epidemic.
This is [F] more like an [A#m] apocalypse.
So when I struggle, it's only right that I [F] fight.
And my experience recites on how that diamond saved my [F#] life.
Look, you don't got a clue what I've been [C#] through.
When I was at my worst, you couldn't [F] walk a mile in [A#m] my shoes.
I survived a lot.
So it's only right that I [F] smile when I'm aware of my surroundings.
I'm no longer in [F#] denial.
I'm blown away by every message that I [C#] get.
It gives me motivation.
It's the [F] reason I never [A#m] quit.
We got to do this together.
We must [F] trust.
There's no you.
There's no me.
There's just [F#] us.
I'm doing this with courage.
I'm doing this with [C#] pride.
I'm doing this for [C#] every single [F] friend that's ever [A#m] died.
I dedicate this song to anyone that's lost a [F] loved one.
So live your life because tomorrow may never [F#] come.
Be grateful for your past.
Embrace it.
Don't get [C#] embarrassed.
Every day there is more children growing [F] up without their [A#m] parents.
I felt pain.
Look, I'm not afraid to [F] cry.
My life changed once I was willing to [F#] try.
I've been given many chances.
Now it's truly do or [C#] die.
I'm doing what it takes.
And my daughter [Fm] will never [A#m] see me.
Hi, _ _ [F] I'm doing what it takes.
And my daughter will never [F#] see me.
_ _ [C#] Hi, I'm doing what it takes.
And my [A#m] daughter will never see me.
Hi, _ _ [F] I'm doing what it takes.
My daughter will never [F#] see me.
Hi, _ _ [C#] I'm doing what it takes.
And my [A#m] daughter will never see me.
Hi, they may not see me.
Hi, [F] they may not. _ _ _
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