Chords for Jonathan Davis talks about Depression And Prozac....https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MHIFnqxIB4

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_ It was the most horrible thing I remember.
When I first got my first panic attack, I thought I was going [Abm] to die. _
[E] And I didn't know what was going on.
That's when I was drinking at the time a lot heavily
and drugs and everything else.
I figured out that that was one of the
reasons why, [Bb] you know, that it's so
hard to deal with anxiety and depression because [E] you don't know what's going on.
You feel like you're going crazy.
And it eventually
because I started getting really paranoid and thinking that medicine
[B] was bad for me and all that stuff like that, I wouldn't take any kinds of meds or anything like that.
I actually [E] turned a little bit schizophrenic for a while.
Anxiety can
do that to [Abm] you.
Where you feel like, I was [E] feeling like
my food was going to be people trying to poison me.
It was really a really tough time. _ _
And that's in 98.
That's when I
finally, I think after my grandfather died, I went into a really bad depression
and I finally gave up.
I said, I got to get clean.
[Bm] _ [E] And my little boy, Nathan at the time, he was three years old.
I came home drunk and
he looked at me like I was a piece of shit.
And I was like, okay, this is enough.
I got to get this
under control.
So I quit drinking.
[Bb] Worked for a little while. _ _
Depression came back.
Anxiety came back.
And [Ab] that's when I decided to get on meds, which helped me immensely.
But I'd always have to deal with [Bb] it.
And that was just the start.
And then the [Ab] depression started coming. _
I [B] can't really explain what depression is like unless you'd suffer [Bm] from it.
It's a horrible thing.
It's like walking around with a giant lead [B] blanket on you.
_ Nothing excites you [E] like it used to. _
_ Things that you used to enjoy, you don't enjoy anymore. _
The concept of happiness is [Ab] just not.
You can't get it at the time.
[B] So I went through really tough times with that
and [E] finally got on some medicine and that helped.
But I [Bb] still, that was just the start of the battle.
I still deal with it to this day.
It's a very dark place.
It's really hard.
And thank God that I had my music
to get me through.
I think music is one of the most [E] powerful
things in the entire world.
[Bm] It has the power to heal people.
It has [Bb] the power to bring people together no matter what you're into. _
It's just a beautiful thing and that's why I threw myself
wholeheartedly into making music because that is my drugs now.
That is my antidepressant.
That is everything to me.
I think people who suffer from depression need to find something, an outlet
_ to express themselves and let those bad things out of their head.
It helped me a lot immensely.
In your brain, depression and shit
can get misplaced.
It's like a file cabinet.
I went [Bm] through this therapy called EMDR therapy where I watched this [Bb] night rider
back and forth because I had post-traumatic stress disorder from working at the coroner's office
and I had horrible nightmares and shit.
The doctors explained to me that
sometimes your brain, when you experience trauma or depression, that your brain can't
properly store that away so it keeps coming back to fucking haunt you in your dreams
or in thoughts.
So I did that therapy
and it really helped a lot.
So if people ask
the doctors if they get help, that therapy really helped me
a _ lot.
My trick is number one, when you're feeling
depressed, you don't want to get out of bed, get the fuck out of bed.
Just get up.
Force yourself to do things that you feel like you're too depressed to do
and it helps.
Another good thing that helps is
[A] with depression is exercise.
If you can just get out
[Bb] and walk or do any kind of exercise,
it has some way of helping your body get through the depression.
For me, it's
playing shows.
I go out there and kill myself.
I've been doing it for 20 years.
My fucking
body hurts.
But that's what keeps me going.
It keeps me
from going to that dark place.
[E] Things that help me overcome it are my
children.
Honestly, those are the greatest things that ever [Bb] happened
to me.
For real, I get emotional about it.
[E] _ _ Those [Bb] little dudes give me a reason to wake up [E] and give me
a reason to shake the depression off because I can't do that in front of them.
I don't
want them to see that.
[F] They were the one things that [G] brought me happiness in this
life along with my music.
[Abm] _
That's how I deal
and the fact that I'm helping [E] people too helps me deal.
I feel _
_ _ like I'm out here
sitting here going to be 44 years old and I want to tell everybody it does get better.
It takes time.
Sometimes it takes medicine.
Sometimes [B] it takes rearranging your whole life and doing things differently.
[E] It does get better at times.
Those are the times I live for.
[B] The dark times come and I get through them.
_ _ [E] Eventually, the good times outweigh the bad.
[Ab] If I was to go back to myself, [Bb] I would try to eliminate
all the guilt in my life.
Guilt is a horrible fucking thing.
They come back to haunt you always.
There's a motto I've lived my life by. _
Do whatever the fuck you want.
Don't let any
outside [B] influences try to make you do something you don't want to do.
As long as you do what you want and you're not hurting anybody, that shit goes away.
There's many experiences like if
guys want to go out and bang a million chicks,
don't be married.
Don't have a family.
If you want to go
be an alcoholic, be drunk, do all that, go [A] do that.
Make sure you don't have anyone you're going to hurt.
You need to eliminate all guilt [B] out of your life
or try to, most of the bullshit.
If I could eliminate that
way early on, I would be a different person today.
It just seems like that shit
keeps piling up and [Bb] piling up.
Then these tapes run [B] in your mind.
You know what I'm talking about.
It's like a fucking tape on loop.
It just fucks with you.
Your brain starts_
I don't know how to explain it.
It just starts going.
I guess it's mania
or whatever they call it.
If I could tell myself to
[E] eliminate all that stuff, I think I would have been a lot better off.
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_ _ _ I would like to tell all of you that you matter and that you're needed and y'all definitely [F] rock.
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