Chords for I'm Not Okay

_ [A#m] Tonight the monsters in my head are [G#] screaming so damn loud _ _ _
But [A#m] I've built walls so [C#] high so they never even make [G#] a sound _ _ _ _
_ _ [A#m] It's a mask.
It's a [G#] lie.
It's the only home I've ever _ known _ _
_ Cuz [D#m] being who I really am
It's [F#] only left me more [A#m] alone
_ _ I am [F#]
not _ [C#] _ okay
And I need you to see [A#m] it
I have so [F#]
much [C#] to say
_ Ain't no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet with so much at [F#] stake
I always feel like a burden that it silenced [C#] me.
You'll never understand why it's so hard to [F#] say _ _ _ _
I'm not [A#m] okay. _ _ _ _
_ _ _ [F#] _ _ _ _ _
I wish I had [A#m] a scar had a bruise on [C#] the surface [G#] any kind of [F#] clue _ _ _ _
_ _ [A#m] Everything I feel is more [C#] than just some sad [G#] excuse
[F#] _ My _ _ [A#m] life's invisible abuse.
I'm [C#] either judged [G#] or have to hide
[F#] _ _ _
_ With [D#m] only symptoms you can see
Yes, I [F#] don't wanna be _ [A#m]
alive
_ _ I Am
[F#] _ _ Okay
[C#] _ _ And I need you to see [A#m] it.
I have [F#] so much to say
[C#] _ _ _ Ain't no one to hear it
The reason I keep quiet with so much at [F#] stake.
I always feel like a burden that it silenced [A#m] me
You'll [C#] never understand why it's so hard to [F#] say _ _ _
_ _ _ [G#] The words I [A#m]
can't explain this [F#] hell _ _ _
What if it [G#] kills me if I [A#m] keep it to _ [C#] myself? _ _ _
_ To [F#] myself _ _ _ _
_ _ _ _ I'm _ not _ [C#] okay
_ And I need you to see [A#m] it I have [F#] so much to [C#] say
_ Ain't no one to hear it
I'm not okay.
I'm not [F#] okay
I'm never safe.
It's not a [C#] face if I finally break will you still [F#] stay? _ _ _
_ Tonight the [A#m] monsters in my head are [C#] screaming so damn [F#] loud _ _ _ _
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